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09.30.05 "Whale-Watching and Running
Free"
I loved last night's dream. It seemed to go on forever and I
didn't want it to end. I was with a large group of people
(including Brad, Liz, Farshad, Sharon and Chris) and we were on a
vacation together. But it wasn't like we were traveling anywhere
far away. We were staying local, and we were just going around the
city enjoying ourselves, sight-seeing and taking advantage of the time
off.
We ended
up at this small but very deep lake. There were various wooden
structures and boats around and we split up to go explore. The
lake had a couple of beautiful, colourful whales that were kind of hard
to see at first, but if you waited they would swim to view. It was
awesome to stare at the water and then suddenly see this massive shape
glide past.
I found
myself alone in one of the boats. It was a bit awkward to navigate
at first but I loved the adventure and I was fine. I took a tour
around the lake and when I got back to shore, people were getting ready
to hop on our mountain bikes and ride off. I was excited for the
journey ahead.
Interpretation:
The textbook analysis: Whales represent being
in touch with your spirituality. Being in a boat signifies the
ability to cope and express emotions. And the water was calm so it
was 'smooth sailing.' But the most amazing part of this dream was
the feeling I had when I woke up: relaxed and at peace with everything
around me. I had such a positive love for life and new adventure
afterwards. I hope these feelings stay.
09.27.05 "Laid Off Again"
The other night I dreamt there was a buzz about the office and they
were asking people to report to a large, company meeting. I
decided not to go because I was feeling a little resilient. But
later I asked my co-workers what had transpired and they told me we were
getting laid off in 1 month. Suddenly I felt a bit anxious and
disappointed. I realized this wouldn't be the same as Motorola
(large bonuses and severance packages) and I would have to go find work
again.
Interpretation:
I have been a bit apathetic at work lately, starting
to think beyond my current position and company (just a bit of
exploration, let's say). However, this dream put things in
perspective for me. If I were to leave my current job, I think I'd
miss it. It made me appreciate what I have. It reminds me of
those Sheryl Crow lyrics: It's not getting what you want/It's
wanting what you've got. Hmmmm.
09.22.05 "My Own, Glorious Condo"
I absolutely loved last night's dream! It was so vivid and
full of positive emotions and it seemed to go on for hours. I wish
all dreams could be like this one.
I dreamt
that I inherited a condo from my wonderful grandmother (who has since
been long deceased). It was in a very cool neighborhood (I'm
thinking near the artists' lofts on Main and 2nd?) and it was also
waterfront. I was on the 16th floor and the building was very
sexy, lots of glass and smooth lines. There were lobbies on each
floor where young, hip, urbanites would hang out on the contemporary
furniture and enjoy the fresh fruit plates and appetizers that were
supplied by management. Down below on the 14th floor someone had
converted their space into an after-hours club (like the World) and I
would visit and hang out, dance a bit, then head upstairs to my own
space.
And
speaking of my own space - it was so incredibly cool! The area
wasn't huge but there were many rooms and the lay-out was very unique.
The main area was a living room, and towards the back was a circular bar
with leather barstools. Then behind this was a small bedroom and a
huge, walk-in pantry/laundry room. The master bedroom was in the
front (facing the water), and there were a couple of bathrooms.
Everything was well decorated and I loved it.
The only
thing that didn't sit well with me in the dream was the realization that
I wouldn't be living with Robin anymore in our house. But then we
decided we could live together some of the time and share the condo and
the house and it would be fantastic.
Interpretation:
Oh, I'm still reeling from it all! What a
wonderful dream! To receive an inheritance in your dream signifies
success and ease of obtaining one's desires. The fact that I
received a home (representing basic needs) is a very positive sign.
I think it means that I've been given many great opportunities lately
(work, relationship, living arrangements) and I've got things taken care
of. What a great feeling.
09.20.05 "Tick, Tock"
In my dream last night I was moderately anxious because one of our
clocks at home kept racing ahead i.e. the digital read-out would advance
ahead and I could see the minutes advancing every few seconds or so.
I kept telling people that it needed to be fixed.
Interpretation:
I think this is a pretty transparent dream.
Clocks often signify the importance of time and the perception that
'time is running out.' This is something I comment on almost a
daily basis, to anyone who will listen. I do feel lately that time
is moving way too quickly. And even though I feel that I've lived
my life how I always wanted to live it (e.g. partying, dining out, being
with friends, traveling, advancing my career on a solid path, and
generally doing what I want to do) I still feel like I could live this
life for another 10 years at least. But the realities of time are
starting to set in, especially around my upcoming 34th birthday. I
find myself thinking more about motherhood, real estate, even
retirement. Yeesh. It's definitely a good thing, but all
changes involve acceptance and commitment and thought processes.
I also
find it interesting in my dream how I didn't even attempt to fix the
clock myself. Usually in my dreams I'm proactive about things.
But I guess this particular dream reminds me that this is something
totally out of my control.
08.31.05 "Floods Rising"
I dreamt last night that there were rising floods at work. But
the odd thing was no one really seemed to care except me. I was
also stressed because I realized I only had a towel wrapped around me
and I was hoping it wouldn't fall off. But then I was relieved to
find that I had my bathing suit on underneath.
When I
got back to my desk, it was submerged in a few inches of water. I
panicked because my laptop was getting wet. But when I reached to
grab it and save it, the water had magically gone away. Things
were still wet, but they weren't drowning.
Interpretation:
Given the situation with Hurricane Katrina, maybe
it's not so surprising that I'm dreaming about floods. But I think
it's also personal. To see rising flood waters can symbolize
struggles with overwhelming emotions. That's pretty much how I
feel these days. For various reasons I've felt hurt, neglected,
and ineffective (in personal relations and at work). As a result,
I've felt very vulnerable (hence the fear of being exposed by my towel
dropping off).
But like
most of my dreams, there was hope. The overwhelming problems
seemed to be subsiding (the water levels going down) and I was able to
preserve my dignity (a bathing suit is better than being naked!).
08.23.05 "Grandma's Scarf"
I didn't really enjoy last night's dream. The details are
fuzzy, but I spent a great deal of time looking for my grandmother's
scarf that she had given to me. I think I had loaned it to someone
and he/she misplaced it. The dream wasn't causing me anxiety, but
I did feel irritated and upset that I had to track the scarf down.
Interpretation:
Scarves can symbolize self-restrictions, suggesting
that I am not expressing my emotions enough. But I think in the
context of this dream, the scarf represents something more general.
Since I loved my grandma very much, I would treasure any gift she gave
to me. So, I think the dream is speaking to something valuable in
my life that I've recently lost touch with. I'm not sure exactly
what that is. But I'm sure it will become apparent in some form or
another.
07.25.05 "Sci-Fi Chases"
Last night's dream was super cool! I dreamt I was in a movie
chase scene, so even though it was stressful I knew I'd be safe (because
it was fiction). I was with a team and we were in this giant
transporter that was basically a robot (think of being inside the
Iron Giant). We
were running along and I could feel the bounce of each step. I
looked into the monitors and we were being pursued by many alien
creatures. We kept running and when we thought we were in the
clear, we stopped and swiveled the transporter's head around to scope it
out. I remember seeing through the large, double eyes of the
robot, looking out into the darkness trying to see our pursuers.
It was so cool.
Interpretation:
I'm not going to analyze this one. It was just
so amazing and vivid that I don't want to ruin it with any
psycho-babble. It was a shame that I was abruptly woken up and
didn't have a chance to enjoy this cool, sci-fi dream for a longer time.
07.15.05 "Finding Fish"
There was a lot going on in last night's dream. But I'll just
write about one incident. I dreamt I was in the washroom (but it
was large and very cool - had one of those claw tubs). Our fish
that are in the large, living room aquarium were somehow swimming around
suspended in the air (i.e. not in their aquarium). I had been
annoyed by someone previously trying to enter the bathroom while I was
in it. So I shooed them away with my hand. With lightning
speed, they all 'swam' away and vanished into other rooms. I was
pissed because I knew I'd have to go find them now. But when I
looked in the tub, I realized some were hiding there (again, no water
required). One of them was Dory from "Finding Nemo". She was
very smiley and I felt better.
Interpretation:
Apparently, swimming fish can represent insights from
the unconscious mind. So the fact that I was trying to chase them
away means I'm not keen on acknowledging or facing certain realizations?
But then when I re-examined the situation, I felt better about
everything? Oh whatever. I'm not in the mood to over-analyze
today. The one thing I can comment on was how cool Dory was.
She was so happy and it left me with a very content feeling.
07.13.05 "Back With An Old Boyfriend - Again?"
For the third night in a row, I dreamt about something significant
from my past. Last night I dreamt I was still with an old
boyfriend. However, I was anxious because I wanted to be with
Robin. I was relieved in the dream when I realized that I simply
just had to leave the ex in order to be with my sweetie. I was
very happy.
Interpretation:
Why the sudden trip down memory lane? Anyway, I
won't analyze anymore. For more insight, see the previous two
dreamlog entries (although the past ex situation wasn't that great in
real life).
07.11.05 "Back on Cambie - Again"
I dreamt I was going back to my old apartment building on Cambie.
In my dream (as in reality) it had been renovated but now I was visiting
a friend who was living in one of the suites. Since I no longer
had a key, I was peeking through the windows - I noticed how young and
hip all the tenants were. I had a bit of a longing to live there
again. Once inside the suite I noticed it was very tastefully
decorated, but it was crowded and full of posers and it was loud.
Immediately I knew it wasn't for me.
Interpretation:
Just like the Motorola dream, I think I'm going to
have recurring, nostalgic dreams about my apartment on Cambie because I
associate it with a positive, exciting time of my life. And the
fact that in my dream the building was not as fantastic as I remember
signifies that everything is in perspective with respect to my current
life.
07.07.05 "Back At Motorola - Again"
I dreamt I was back at Motorola. I was in my old cubicle (but
it looked a little different), and all my friends were back too: Farshad,
Aaron, etc. We were hanging out in my cube, laughing and talking
loudly. Even my old boss Bob was there making jokes. It felt
really good and comfortable. But then I realized: shoot, now I'm
not working downtown. And I was a bit disappointed.
Interpretation:
I think I'll have ongoing dreams about Daddy
Mot for years to come. It was just such a great place to work and
I had very positive and career-boosting experiences there. Every
now and then I'll just have some nostalgic dreams that might be prompted
by a longing to be/return to a comfortable place. It's interesting
though how I was hesitant in my dream. I guess I'm realizing that
my current working/life situation has positive aspects too, and I
shouldn't shrug those off too easily.
07.05.05 "Whistler Condos and
Toonces the Driving Cat"
Oh, last night's dream was a doozy. Where to start. I
dreamt I was in charge of making some investments for Robin and myself.
So, I went up to Whistler to invest in real estate. Decent places
were scarce but I was able to snatch up a small condo. I also
decided to invest in a parking spot on the street (apparently they were
for sale). As I was scoping out the spot, what do I see - Calvin
(my dearly departed kitty cat) parallel parking a car. I was a bit
nervous that he wouldn't be able to properly shoulder check, but he did
just fine. When I got back home, I told Robin about the
investments and we were happy.
Interpretation:
Oh my goodness. Okay, I'm not even
going to look up dream interpretations for deceased cats driving cars.
That's just bizarre. But I will say this: finding and actually
having the money to invest in Whistler is about as likely as a cat
parallel parking a car. However, the fact that in my dream I was
able to attain a very unlikely feat prompts me to keep dreaming and
reaching for the stars.
07.04.05 "Go To Sleep Already"
I had a freaky dream this morning after Robin said good-bye. I
must have drifted back into a deep slumber. I dreamt that I was
given anesthesia and I was waiting to be put under. However, it
wasn't working right away. I kept staring at my arm, waiting for
it to take effect. I was concerned that I would be operated on but
the drugs wouldn't take full effect and I would wake up partway through
so I was struggling to stay awake.
Interpretation:
Apparently this means that I'm suppressing
my emotions. But I really don't think I should interpret this
literally. In waking life I know I was trying to stay awake to
listen to the morning news report on the radio. I was fighting to
stay awake, and I guess I failed (and fell back asleep, and had this
bizarre dream about staying awake).
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