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09.30.04 "Sweet Peter"
Last night's dream was kind of bittersweet.
I dreamt I was at work (and surprisingly, it looked like it is in
waking life) and Peter was there working with me (but in reality
he's in Taiwan). I remember being surprised, almost like I had
forgotten that he worked there. He said he had been busy
lately, but then I suggested we go out for lunch later. He was
his usual pleasant self and gave me a big hug. It felt really
nice. At the end I remember looking up from my desk and he was
sitting a couple of desks away from me, reading a document. I
still couldn't believe that he was there.
Interpretation:
I've
been quite busy lately, and currently I'm trying to hook up with some
people that I haven't seen for awhile. I have this strange guilt
feeling sometimes when I'm really busy and need to book ahead with
people to make plans. It's like I feel bad for being so
busy. Anyway, with last night's dream, I think it was just
reflecting my feelings that somehow I'm neglecting certain
friends. It's not really true, but I can't help but feel that
way sometimes.
09.24.04 "Snake In the Water"
Oh, what a doozy last night! I dreamt I was
maybe near Granville Island, somewhere with urban dwellings with a
waterway nearby. I looked at the water and was surprised to
see an enormous snake swimming by. It was huge! But on
its back were some people - it was transporting them. I
remember being surprised, but I also thought it was cool.
Interpretation:
Snakes
can typically represent threats and unknown fears. However, they can
also signify transformation and wisdom. Since the dream had a
positive tone overall, I think the meaning is more of the
latter. Also, clear water in dreams signifies that one is in
tune spiritually. So overall it was a good dream.
09.23.04 "Jerry and George"
Yes, "Seinfeld" was the focus of my
dream last night. I dreamt I was watching a reunion show of
"Seinfeld", and it was Jerry and George as older men (the
actors wore make-up and prosthetics). The comedy was quite
witty and hilarious and I was enjoying it, even though I was
surprised the actors had done this. I was under the impression
that Jerry Seinfeld had said that he would never do such a reunion
show.
Interpretation:
Watching
TV in a dream can represent how you are expressing your
thoughts. But I think in this case, the program itself is
important. In waking life, I loved "Seinfeld" in its
heyday. The fact that I was enjoying the program just as much
even when they were doing this surprise reunion show (such shows are
usually cheesy and stupid) - well, I think that signifies that I'm
enlightened with the fact that something in my life is more enjoyable
than anticipated. What could that be? The only thing I can
think of is my home life. It's been really enjoyable lately, and
perhaps I'm really starting to enjoy the advantages of co-habiting vs.
living on my own. Hmmmm. Who knows?
09.22.04 "Back To School"
I dreamt I was back in school (university).
I was in a cafeteria and I saw some people I haven't associated with
for years (including an ex). I was with Jim and Paige, and P
was telling us about a Chinese holiday where everyone is voyeuristic
and spies on one another.
Interpretation:
Dreaming
that you're back in school can relate to anxiety about performance and
abilities. This definitely ties into my day yesterday - my work
review was good but I learned that I'm going to be focusing on some
new challenges. It's exciting yet challenging at the same
time. Now, the Chinese voyeuristic thing - that must stem from
Dan Savage's column in the Georgia Straight that I read while waiting
for my take-out last night (subject was a voyeuristic fetish).
That has to be the explaination.
09.20.04 "Washroom Privacy"
I dreamt I was in a public washroom, trying to
find an available stall. It was pretty busy and many of the
stalls had little privacy (e.g. big holes in the walls), or the
toilets were all in a row without walls at all. I was getting
frustrated trying to find a private one. I finally did (even
though the walls were a little short) but was happy to find it.
Interpretation:
Not
surprisingly, dreaming of being in a public washroom without adequate
stalls can represent a lack of privacy. I definitely think that
ties into my waking life. I have enough privacy at home (with
Robin), but I feel that I don't really have enough down time these
days. This weekend, Robin and I decided to take things easy and
just have a "Robin and Rena" weekend (something we haven't
done since June). And it was awesome. We're going to try
and do that about once a month.
09.15.04 "History of Bunnies"
In last night's dream, I was with my mother in a
hotel room somewhere (definitely another country - maybe
Mexico?). When we were packing up to leave, they had removed
some furniture and it looked pretty empty. I was glad to be
leaving. Then in another segment of my dream, I had purchased
a book called "The History of Bunnies". As I flipped
through it, I was surprised to see the pictures to be of
dinosaurs. Even though I didn't read the entire book, I knew
that the cute bunny pictures would be in the book eventually
(towards the end).
Interpretation:
I've
dreamt of hotel rooms before (they signify the need to move away from
old ways of thinking). In this dream I was glad to leave the
hotel - so I think in waking life, I'm happy to be abandoning my old
habits (whether it be my self-induced neuroses, my self-critical
views, my constant desire to be busy and going out, etc).
I've also dreamt of rabbits before
(which signify good luck and positive outlooks). The fact that I
was expecting rabbits in the book but saw dinosaurs (which represent
an outdated attitude) ties in with the first portion of my
dream: Once I let go of my outdated ways of thinking, I'll be
more free to enjoy the good things that come my way (and that looks
like it's already happening).
09.10.04 "Moles to the Rescue"
I dreamt I got up in the middle of the night to
go to the washroom. I was grossed out because there were all
these bug crawling on the floor. I tried stamping my feet to
scare them, and some scuttled away (but it wasn't entirely
successful). Then, I felt something soft and furry brush past
my foot. It was a mole, and I was happy because it was eating
all the bugs.
Interpretation:
Bugs
have played an on-going role in some of my dreams. I've
concluded that they basically represent blowing my fears and worries
out of proportion. This dream was interesting because the mole
was solving the situation, and moles can represent unconscious
drives. So, I'd say that in waking life I'm working hard to
eradicate my unrealistic fears and anxieties.
09.09.04 "Work Review Part 2"
I dreamt of my upcoming work performance review
again. But this time I was at a totally different company and
my boss was a young woman who didn't even know my name. I
remember feeling agitated and frustrated.
Interpretation:
I
guess I'm getting myself worked up about my work review. In
truth, I'm really looking forward to it so I can say/vent a few
things.
09.07.04 "Work Review"
Last night's dream had some co-workers from
Motorola. Bob was still my boss and I was talking to Jennifer
S. about our upcoming performance reviews. I remember feeling
comfortable and everything was familiar.
Interpretation:
I
still find myself comparing Blast and Motorola. In waking life,
I have my first performance review coming up at work. To be
honest, I'm a little anxious because I haven't gotten much feedback
about things. I think this dream was just a longing for a time
when I was extremely confident at work. But I realize that these
things take time to build up.
09.06.04 "Girlfriend"
I dreamt I was on a bus or train. In the
dream, I had a girlfriend. She was blonde and very attractive,
and we were holding hands. I remember feeling excited and a
little nervous, but happy overall.
Interpretation:
Since
my dream of being gay was a comfortable one, I think it represents
self-love and self-acceptance. The fact that I was moving along
in the dream (on transit) symbolizes moving forward. It was a
good dream.
09.02.04 "Time with Mom and Large Showers"
In one part of my dream last night, I was hanging out with Robin and my mother. They were teasing each other and getting along really well. In another part of my dream, I was taking a shower in a very large, open shower. I don't even think it had a curtain or door, it was just wide open space. I remember thinking it was pretty neat.
Interpretation:
In real life, Robin and my mother get along really well. So, maybe I was just anticipating our outing on Saturday (going car shopping together).
Taking a shower in clear water can represent spiritual or physical renewal, or the need to wash a burden away. I have been feeling a bit weighted down lately with various mixed emotions (e.g. feeling socially pressured, lack of privacy, etc) and I've been dealing with them over the last couple of weeks. I guess it's time to let go
and then I'll feel better.
08.30.04 "Awoken"
I went to bed Saturday night around 2am.
Robin was going to be coming home soon. I haven't gone to bed
by myself much since I moved in, and I was also still a little
affected by the break-in. I remember being exhausted, yet
trying to listen for sounds in the house.
The next thing I knew, I was wide awake and Robin
was lying next to me, looking at me and smiling. He had just
gotten home, maybe around 2:30am. Even though I knew it was him
and I felt safe, I was terrified. And I continued to be scared
for about 20 minutes afterwards. It was pretty creepy thinking
that I was so out of it that I didn't hear him unlock the door, get
changed, climb into bed etc. Usually I hear these things and
wake up somewhat.
08.24.04 "Ivan's Moving Day and Saving Nemo"
My dream last night had two distinct
chapters. In the first, Robin and I went to Ivan's to help him
move. I distinctly remember him eating a sandwich, and I think
it was pretty early in the morning. In the second portion of
my dream, I found a leak in one of Robin's fish tanks. The
tank was only half-full of water as a result, but I caught it in
time and called Robin at work to get him to walk me through what to
do to save the fish.
Interpretation:
Before
I went to bed last nigh, I spoke to Ivan about his moving
situation. Sandwiches in dreams can represent pressure and
stress. That definitely applies to Ivan's life right now as he
tries to find a new apartment. I guess it was a sympathy
dream. And the fact that Robin and showed up to help Ivan shows
our support (hang in there, Miss Ivan!).
The second portion was a bit
stressful, but overall it was positive. I was saving something
that is very important to Robin (he loves his fishies), i.e. I feel I
play an ever-growing important role in his life, as he does in mine.
08.20.04 "Here Kitty, Kitty"
I loved the feeling/mood from last night's
dream. I dreamt that I was potentially adopting a cat, and the
kitty was so incredibly affectionate (always nuzzling me) and so
pretty (longish, soft fur that was champagne coloured). I
momentarily worried that Robin might not appreciate this, but then
thought, "Oh, who wouldn't love this kitty - he/she's so
beautiful and happy!"
Interpretation:
Hmmm,
lots of dreams with Robin recently. So, cats can represent
independence, feminine sexuality, creativity and power. And I
would say those are all good things in this context! Being
excited and comfortable with the cat and knowing that Robin would be
pleased as well indicates to me that I'm feeling positive about myself
on the whole, and I'm confident that my partner feels the same
way. What a great way to start a Friday.
08.18.04 "True Romance on the Big Screen"
I dreamt Robin and I went to this cool, outdoor
theatre. "True Romance" (his favourite movie, and
one that I haven't seen) was playing. I remember being very
excited.
Interpretation: Watching
a movie in your dreams can mean that life is passing you by.
However, I think the fact that Robin and I were watching this
particular film holds significance. I was at the theatre mainly
for Robin and at the same time I was excited to be experiencing this
event with him. I think this speaks to the fact that I'm
embracing him more into my life and enjoy sharing things with
him.
08.11.04 "Dreaming of Robin 2 - Where Are My Kisses?"
This morning I woke up to the sound of the back
door shutting as Robin left for work. I couldn't remember him
giving me morning kisses, and thought maybe he didn't this morning
(because I always wake up somewhat). I drifted back to sleep
and dreamt of a re-enactment of our morning routine. But of
course I was awake in the dream to kiss him good-bye. It's
funny how your waking life can so directly influence your dreams in
such a timely manner.
08.10.04 "Tables Are Turning"
I dreamt I was at Farshad's place, admiring how
clean and organized his place was. I told him it reminded me
of how my apartment used to be. Then he needed my help moving
a table inside because he didn't want it to get wet.
Interpretation:
Tables
represent social and family connections. The fact that I was
moving it - could that symbolize shifts in my social circles and
activities? And the admiring of the clean and organized bachelor
pad - well, I'm just going to write that up as nostalgia.
08.08.04 "Animal Farm in My Closet"
Full on craziness! I dreamt that Robin and
I were raising fish and rabbits in the house. We kept them in
the closet on coat hangers (yes, the fish were out of water) and
they were perfectly happy. As they matured, I transferred them
to other accommodations. One rabbit got away, and I chased it
(as it ran very quickly). I eventually caught up with it.
Interpretation:
Even
the dream interpretation web site isn't really helping me this
time. But I'll give it a go anyway. Closets typically
symbolize keeping something hidden, or alternatively finally unveiling
some aspect of yourself. Fish can represent unconscious
insights, and rabbits are often symbols of luck and positive
outlooks. To see hangers in a dream suggests I'm getting
comfortable with something in my life.
So, what does it all mean? I
have been feeling a little overwhelmed lately (tons going on, I feel
that I'm not keeping up with things like contact with family and
friends, etc). I've realized that in many ways I really enjoy
the retreat of my new home, even though spending more time there means
a less busy social life. I think this dream represents all that
inner dialogue I've been having lately. But I'll catch up with
that rabbit/positive attitude once I open the closet and acknowledge
my unconscious thoughts and become comfortable with them.
08.05.04 "Leave Your Message After the Tone"
I dreamt that there was some kind of recording or
phone message. And it was Ivan. He sounded his usual
calm, baritone self. I remember being surprised, yet happy to
hear from him.
Interpretation:
Answering
machines can mean that I'm not listening to what someone is trying to
tell me. Maybe Ivan is withholding something from me? I
would hope not. I'm sure it's just because I usually speak with
Ivan every night, but due to his new work schedule we haven't been
that consistent over the last couple of weeks. I miss him.
08.01.04 "Cowboys in Cars"
Last night's dream had a whole bunch of content,
but I can't remember most of it. The one segment I recall
involved me meeting Robin but he was nowhere to be found. Then
I saw him in the parking lot in a parked car, and he was wearing a
cowboy hat. He asked me something like, "Where've you
been, chickie doodle?", and all my frustrations just melted
away.
Interpretation: I
seem to be dreaming of parked cars (a signal to stop and enjoy life)
quite a bit. And the fact that Robin was wearing a cowboy hat
(symbolizing masculinity and toughness) - well, maybe I should just
stop and appreciate this fine specimen of a man who is all mine.
07.29.04 "Dreaming of Robin"
Every morning before work, Robin comes back to
the bedroom to give me kisses and snuggle with me for a few
minutes. Usually I know he's there, but I'm kind of in that
waking consciousness state and usually can't communicate anything
more than a sigh. This morning I knew he was there, but then
drifted off to sleep and actually started dreaming of him. I
was only out for about 1-2 minutes max, and then I opened my eyes
and he was still there beside me. It was funny and comforting
at the same time.
07.28.04 "Fall"
Last night's dream was a doozy. There were
so many segments and emotions. I remember my car was parked in
Deep Cove, and I didn't like the high traffic area (near a
corner). I was parked legally, but after much fretting I moved
it and felt much better afterwards. In another sequence, I was
visiting Aly at work. We were inside his building and I almost
fell off a rather large drop-off (caught myself at the last moment)
but my car and a bunch of papers fell over the side. I was
very relieved to be safe. That's all I could remember.
Interpretation:
Where
to begin? Seeing a parked car is a sign to stop and enjoy
life. That does tie into feelings that I've had lately, about
appreciating something as basic as my health and enjoying the beauty
that is all around us. The near-death fall was freaky.
Falling represents lack of control and insecurity. The fact that
I was able to save myself is an important key - I guess I'm able to
keep things under control with my waking life. This could tie
into my job situation - I was recently proactive to seek out new
opportunities at work since one of my projects is coming to an end.
07.26.04 "Gravol Hallucinations"
When I was ill last week, I wanted a good night's
sleep. So I took a Gravol - always knocks me out. I woke
up around 2am and I had to go to the washroom, but it was like
struggling through a waking dream. Walking to the bathroom
took about 5 minutes, then I remember standing and staring at our
bathroom curtain because it was tripping me out. I almost
thought I wasn't going to make it back to bed, I was so drugged
up. How bizarre. I wonder what would happen if I took an
actual sleeping pill? Mayhem, I'm sure.
07.14.04 "Penguins in the Grass"
This morning I had a waking dream. I remember
seeing a large field (perhaps of wheat or tall straw grass) and a
penguin standing in the middle. I remember waking up and
thinking it was an odd juxtaposition of images.
Interpretation:
A
large field can represent abundance and signify that you are going
through personal growth. To see a penguin in a dream signifies
that problems are not as serious as you think. It's a reminder
to keep cool and remain level-headed. I'll definitely take it as
a good sign.
07.12.04 "Hotel Vancouver"
I dreamt I was on some kind of business trip with
2 annoying women. I remember being at the hotel, and we were
late for a meeting, and I was getting mildly stressed out. But everything
worked out in the end.
Interpretation:
Being
late signifies a fear or uncertainty of change. A hotel
signifies a new state of mind, and I need to move away from old habits
and old modes of thinking. Funny how dreams can reflect current
states of mind? Anyway, I guess I'm still just dealing with the
changes in my life (i.e. the move). But I'd say the dream was
positive, that everything went smoothly in the end.
07.07.04 "Dragonfly"
Again, there were plenty of things going on in my
dream but I only remember bits and pieces. One vivid part had
me and Robin sitting in the backyard at dusk, and we were watching
dragonflies flying around. It was very cool.
Interpretation:
Dragonflies
represent change. Well, no surprise there. And since the
dream had a positive mood about it, I'd like to think that the changes
going on in my life are positive as well.
07.06.04 "Bed Bliss"
There were many things going on in my dream last
night, but I can't remember most of it. However, one part that
sticks out was Robin lying on a big bed with white linen. He
was sitting up doing something (reading?) but the thing I remember
most was how peaceful and clean the bedroom was.
Interpretation:
Beds
often represent sexuality. But the overriding tone of peaceful
bliss in the bedroom was the message in the dream for me. I
remember waking up with the same feeling that I felt when I went to
bed last night - relaxed and at ease beside Robin.
07.05.04 "Parked"
My dream last night was very involved, but I
don't remember much of it. The portion I remember had me
anxiously looking at my car that was parked in a parking lot, and I
wanted to start driving.
Interpretation:
Parked
cars can symbolize the need to stop and enjoy life. That makes
sense, given my current situation - I've been working for the past
month or so towards the move. Now that I'm all settled, I'm
anxious to get back into my routine of social fun and enjoyment
(enough with the packing and organizing!).
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