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06.30.04 "Best Little Whorehouse in Burnaby"
I dreamt that Robin and I were with a female
prostitute. But the odd thing is that in the dream, I wasn't
really bothered by it. In fact, in the dream I was waiting for
her to leave so Robin and I could be on our own. And Robin felt the same way too.
Interpretation:
In
this context, I think this dream symbolizes my comfort and trust with
Robin. Being with a prostitute can signify a feeling that sexual
relations are simple and straightforward. I can't wait to tell
him the details after work today. He'll appreciate it, I'm sure.
06.27.04 "Old Haunts"
The evening after the move, I dreamt I went back
to my apartment to tidy up. It was pretty much empty, with
just a few leftover things. But I had a feeling that it was
haunted, that there was a ghost there. I could hear things
rattling, and I saw curtains moving. I was pretty unsettled,
so I did some clean-up then got out of there.
Interpretation:
Ghosts
can be a sign to move on and to abandon old modes of thinking and
behaviour. How fitting, as I move from my single-dwelling,
1-bedroom apartment to Robin's house. It's a good sign.
Definitely.
06.25.04 "Babbling Brooks and Playing the Piano"
I dreamt that I was afloat on a raft, looking
into a clear stream. The current was steady but not
aggressive, and I could see the sandy riverbed. Later on, I
was in a room full of pianos, and I was very excited to start
playing.
Interpretation:
I've
seen clear water a number of times now which is good since it can
represent peace of mind. And pianos can represent a quest for
harmony in life. Overall it was a good dream - full of positive
images and emotions.
06.24.04 "Just Desserts"
In last night's dream, I remember being at an
outdoor garden party. I don't remember many details, but I
remember having a good feeling overall (nice weather, relaxing, good
food, gentle music in the background). One detail I do
remember is they kept bringing desserts to the table and I believe
they were complementary as well.
Interpretation: Desserts
indicate celebration and reward. I think the whole dream is just
a reflection of my current state of mind. I feel very positive
about my changes in life (especially the move) and I'm looking forward
to a new 'me'.
06.22.04 "Chased"
My dream last night should have been stressful,
but it wasn't really. I dreamt Robin (or some man that was a
combination of people including Robin and Kevin, my cousin's
husband) was trying to harm myself, someone else (maybe my brother?)
and Ella, my cousin's
young daughter. I remember Robin had a blow torch and that was
pretty stressful, and I was particularly concerned about Ella. At
one point I ran out of the house with Robin in pursuit. I ran
into the street because I knew I'd be safe there (a passing car
stopped to help). I don't remember much after that, but I was calm and
composed during the situation.
Interpretation:
I
believe this dream relates to my moving situation. And even
though it appears nasty, it's actually a positive dream. Trying
to save a child can represent my attempts to save a part of myself
from being destroyed. So, in the dream I'm concerned about
Ella (which is in fact probably my independence that I'm fearing of
losing during the move) but Robin is the motivator to get me into
action, and leave that concern behind. Even though he's chasing
me in the dream, he gets me into a safety zone. A controlled
fire signifies inner transformation in dreams, and I think that ties
in positively as well.
06.21.04 "Moving Day"
Last night's dream was mildly stressful. I
dreamt I was packing up, but suddenly the space that I was packing
up had suddenly grown. It now included this huge recreational
center with tons of disorganized stuff. I started to get
stressed out, wondering where I was going to find the time.
But then in the end, I realized that this wasn't my responsibility,
and I didn't have to pack it up for this weekend's move.
Interpretation:
Given
my current situation, this dream is pretty predictable. I guess
I'm a little stressed out with my move (who isn't?) but in the end, I
took control of the situation and moved forward. Props to me.
06.11.04 "Babies Again"
Last night's dream was a doozy. It had many
different segments, but I only vividly remember certain parts.
For one segment, I was walking behind the streets of Lonsdale (North
Van) with Brent. By walking with him, I was going to be late
for something. He wasn't pressuring me, but I was pressuring
myself so to speak to go with him. The second segment of the
dream had me walking with a female acquaintance, and I was going to
be baby-sitting her newborn baby. The odd thing was that the
baby was wrapped up in blankets but in a shopping cart which I was
pushing. It was quite cold out, and I was hyper-sensitive
about the baby's health (probably more so than the mother was).
Interpretation:
The
segment with me putting my friend's wishes before mine - that
summarizes some of my personality traits. I tend to think of
others before I consider my own situation, and I often find it
difficult to tell a friend "No". I have been thinking
of this lately in that I feel I should be focusing more on
myself. That's not to say that I'll become completely selfish,
but I want to consider my needs first before agreeing to help out with
others.
The second segment was
interesting. Babies are often signs of new beginnings.
Shopping carts are indicative of reaping rewards from hard work.
I think the baby in my case indicates my move, which I have been
investing quite a bit of effort into lately (emotionally and also by
organizing my belongings for packing). I think the fact that I
was tending to the baby foretells that all this effort will be worth
it in the end, and my move to Burnaby will be positive and rewarding.
06.09.04 "Rapunzel, I Am"
I dreamt that I was admiring my hair - it was
very full and bouncy, and it seemed longer than normal.
Interpretation:
Healthy
hair indicates sexual virility and good health. Whoo-yeah!
I guess that ties in with my recent weekend marathon with Robin, and
my increased activity regime. Long hair can be a sign that I'm
thinking intensely about a situation. Yeah, that would be the
move. Since I've drawn it out over the next couple of weeks, I'm
constantly planning things in bits and pieces (e.g. what should I
store at my mother's, what should I bring to Robin's, what do I really
need, etc). But it's all good.
06.05.04 "Terror From the Drain Hole"
Last night when I came home, I went into the
bathroom and noticed a foreign object in my sink. An enormous,
brown wolf spider was sitting motionless, terrifyingly vivid against
the white surface. I was in shock. It took all my energy
not to scream. Then it started to move, crawling up the lip of
the sink.
I turned on the water, but it was difficult to catch
the spider in the stream. It was a constant battle - I kept
trying to throw water on it, and it kept scrambling up the
slope. I finally got it down the drain, but then to my horror I
watched it crawl back up. I threw on the taps again, and finally
washed it away.
Later that night, I dreamt that spiders by the
dozens (purple, black, brown, large, spindly - all kinds) were
crawling up my bath tub drain hole and I was frantically trying to
flush them down. Oh, what a long night....
05.28.04 "Knapsacks Full of Baggage"
In my dream last night, I was carrying an old
knapsack that I've since given away (I needed to retire it). I
remember in the dream not feeling so comfortable with it on my back.
Interpretation:
Apparently,
knapsacks can signify emotional baggage that is weighing me
down. If that's the case, it's good in the dream that I wasn't
comfortable, and wanted to get rid of it. As I'm going through
the process of purging my apartment, it's also a good time to purge
the skeletons and cobwebs.
05.27.04 "Water Dogs"
I dreamt that I was trying to swim across a dark,
deep swimming pool. There was a large, excited dog in the
water, and it kept trying to grab my leg. I knew in the dream
that the dog didn't intend to harm me, yet I was pretty apprehensive
about getting into the water.
Interpretation:
A
dog biting me can suggest that I'm hesitant to approach new situations
in life. And unclear water can suggest cloudy
judgment/thinking. I find it rather interesting that I had this
dream last night since I've felt very at peace with myself over this
long weekend, feeling relaxed and eager about my move again.
05.19.04 "Dejected Would-Be Lovers"
Last night's dream was a doozy. I had such
an intense sleep, and my dream was pretty vivid. I dreamt I
was rooming with some guy who happened to be a bit 'simple.'
We also worked together. He wrote me a letter, telling me that
he would like to be romantically involved with me. However,
when I told him 'no', he got quite irate, going so far as to
threaten me with hitting me with a frying pan. I was
distressed but I felt in control. I went to HR to sort it out.
Interpretation:
The
dream was intense but I think the reasons behind it are old-hat.
It all relates to work again. But the good thing is that even
though work is still stressful, I think I feel that I have a better
grip on things now.
05.14.04 "Leaks and Laundry"
I had a rather disjointed dream. I can't
remember all of it, but I do recall bits and pieces. I dreamt
there was a leak in my bathroom ceiling and water was coming through
(this has actually happened before in real life). But in the
dream I didn't care, because I'll be moving soon. I also
remember having some laundry hanging on clotheslines outside, and I
was worried because they were getting wet in the rain.
Interpretation:
Leaks
are usually indicative of loss. Yeah, that ties into my current
situation (I've been thinking, perhaps too much, about what I'll be
'losing' in the move - my independence, my identity, my belongings
that are going in storage). Doing laundry can represent changing
my image. But the fact that the laundry was getting wet and
possibly damaged suggests that I'm having issues with the changes that
are affecting my 'self'. All this is old news to me. As I
go through the process of accepting the change, I have to mourn what
I'm losing. Then, I can focus on the positive, what I'll be
gaining.
05.10.04 "Intruders Be Gone"
I had a great sleep the other night, despite the
fact I had a pretty intense dream. I noticed some things were
missing from my apartment, and concluded that someone had broken
into my place, and they were still there. So, I grabbed a
baseball bat and was walking around my apartment trying to find
them, sometimes blindly swinging in the dark. It was
moderately freaky, but I didn't wake up in a sweat.
Interpretation:
Surprise,
surprise - robberies represent an identity crisis and/or some loss in
life. That pretty much sums up my conflicted feelings about
moving out. Don't get me wrong - I'm very excited to be shacking
up with Robin, but I'm also very sad to say good-bye to my single,
independent self.
04.28.04 "Child's Play"
I dreamt that I had a child, a young boy. I
was chasing him around, and we were laughing. During the
dream, I remember thinking to myself, "This is fun.
Having a child isn't so bad."
Interpretation:
So
many reasons for this dream. Firstly, I spoke to Henry before
bed, and we were talking about Brandon (his partner's 3-year
old). Secondly, I've had baby on the brain lately (thinking of
the near future), talks about it with Robin, etc.
Also, children in dreams can
represent a carefree nature, a longing for the past. The fact
that I was chasing the child - well, maybe I'm trying to recapture
something from my years past. But I was happy and content -
definitely a good sign. I can see all this tying into my recent
thoughts about my next steps in life, specifically where I'm going to
live. Robin and I have been talking about moving in recently
(this time permanently) and I've been conflicted because I still want
to hold on to my independence somewhat. But I feel that I'm
reaching resolution on this issue, and whatever happens will work out
for the best.
04.25.04 "Who is that Beside Me?"
Another bizarre sleep-related incident, although
I wasn't too affected by it. I woke up early morning Sunday
from a very deep sleep at Robin's. Initially I was a little
confused about where I was. But then the second thought I had
was a bit more disconcerting: who's this person sleeping beside
me? Oh, right, it's Robin (I've only been waking up beside him
for about a year and a bit). Actually, it's pretty funny in
retrospect.
04.23.04 "Biking on Water"
I had a dream a couple of years back that still
sticks with me today. It was so vivid and amazing. I
dreamt that I was riding my bike in Demonstration Forest in North
Vancouver. However, I was biking on the lakes instead of the
trails. I was gliding so quickly and effortlessly across the
glassy surfaces of the water. It almost felt like I was
flying, and it seemed to last for hours. I woke up with a
magical feeling that lasted for the remainder of the day.
Interpretation:
This
is definitely one of my favourite dreams of all times.
Apparently, calm water can signify being in tune with your
spirituality, representing serenity and peace of mind. And
bicycles represent balance in life. I can't really recall my
state of mind at the time of the dream, but I can only hope to have a
similar dream sometime soon.
04.20.04 "Cry for Me, Argentina"
Last night's dream was pretty emotional. I
remember a colleague was leaving (moving away) and I was crying in
the dream. I was overcome by sadness, and it felt so good to
cry about it.
Interpretation:
The
dream was so vivid. I remember going through the different
stages/emotions you can experience right before you start
crying. It felt really good. Crying in dreams can
represent letting go of negative emotions. I like that
explanation. Who wants to be carrying old, negative baggage
around? Not me. It's time to leave it on the rotating
carousel at the baggage claim.
04.18.04 "Remembering Me"
I haven't really been updating my Dream Log
lately because I haven't been remembering my dreams. But I
will share a rather bizarre experience that I had awhile back.
When I first moved out of my mom's house and into my
apartment, sometimes I would wake up and for the initial few seconds
of consciousness, I didn't know where I was. Or, I would think
that I was still at my mother's house. That happened every once
in awhile for the first couple of months, maybe even for a year.
But I clearly remember something very weird and
creepy that happened maybe 2-3 years ago. I woke up from a very
deep sleep and for the first 10 seconds or so, I had no idea who I
was, let alone where I was. It was so incredibly surreal.
I was lying there, trying to figure out my name, if I was a man or
woman, how old I was, everything. It almost got to the point
where I thought I'd have to jump up and look in the mirror to remind
me who I was. But then everything clicked.
It was actually quite scary, and it's never happened
again since. Thank goodness.
04.02.04 "Karaoke Revolution Concert"
I dreamt that Mark and I went to the Black Eyed
Peas concert, but it was in some lame high school gym. When
they started to perform, we noticed that some of the band members
were missing, and instead were replaced by some really lame older
white guys (?). Mark and I left the concert, but then went
back in. By then, everyone was pissed off and had left, and
the band members were upset. I wasn't terribly upset - if
anything, I felt bad for the band.
Interpretation:
Apparently, being at a concert in your dreams represents harmony, and
an uplifting of spirits. Well, that's cool to know. But if
read in context, I think the fact that the concert wasn't quite what I
wanted is key, and my reaction too is important. Looking at my
current life situation, I was recently disappointed that Robin and I
decided it's not a good idea to move in together right now. It
was rather difficult to accept at first, but now I've accepted it and
am now getting excited about buying my own place. I think this
dream represents that process that I've gone through.
This dream also reminds me of
Karaoke Revolution, and how sometimes you can get booed off the
stage. But somehow I think my first interpretation is more
relevant.
04.01.04 "Don't Go Downstairs!"
Creepsville. I dreamt I moved into the
apartment that my grandmother once owned (before she died).
The place was ok, but it wasn't really what I wanted. I
distinctly remember there being a flight of stairs to the basement
(in an apartment - strange) but I was scared to go down them.
I still remember the eerie hesitation and the dark staircase.
Interpretation:
Hesitating
to go down stairs signifies repressed memories. It's interesting that
this dream involves my grandmother that I was never really fond
of. She was definitely old-school, and I remember all my life
she treated me with less respect and love than my brother because I
was a girl (the Chinese way). Also last week, I had a
conversation with Robin where I became very upset when I revealed my
reasoning behind wanting a covered parking spot (because in my family
I was always designated to the street - the 2 car port spots were for
my mother and brother only). I thought I had dealt with most
issues from the past. Maybe it's time to re-visit them.
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